be welcome to my brain

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endless orobouros of creation
the snake eating its tail
I bring it again

Meet face one of my Gemini presentation
Aries and ram type A-like ass-hole like anal like a hole where I'm constantly lingering where empty and drive like a driven train taking over because I *have* no control over my brain running away from me with its, ever seeing holes everwhere round 'bouts and I see blankness protractiveness, nothing new or pro-created but anti-created or re-created from something already recreationally broken
hack like a pretender in my own mind and I finger my own lips and wet the seams where my soul is held together or just my heart or just my writing which is all the same really fuck me through the gaps in my words
I dare you to take my seams apart.

Meet face two of my Gemini presentation,
Pisces with a vengence, passive agressive like the very liquid sound of seduction calling from ink and blankness and binary code, meld with the green and black like matrix space in a place where I am God and get lost in what I am not. solid, I am not. steady, I am irrevocable like decay like rot like dust like diseased thigh's welcome like an opening like innocents that promises pain and slow falls down
ward? I am weak. like water, I am inevitable and like silences and predictable like smooth glazed eyes, there are no edges that won't melt and no edge that I won't lose. I will ease your transition and made the edge sliiiiiiide, but
there is no way you can help me follow.

I sink, lop-ended end over end and ending like snake-tail-biting and down deep away,
my apologies to the sun.

Comments

[madam-h.livejournal.com]

Bad head days are grim.

::hugs::

[maymorning.livejournal.com]

Wish I could say something that could help. Just one thing, from one Piscean to another: water is not weak. It's bloody strong! Think of a storm at sea, iceburgs, a river in full flood. We're not weak, us Fishies, we're stronger than we look. :-)

[quasi-hayley.livejournal.com]

Do you read the Beat poets? Because you should, that was stunning poetry :) and *hugs* feeling depressed sucks :(

[guede-mazaka.livejournal.com]

Pretty words, sad reality. My own last gasp before the end.

[uguisubari.livejournal.com]

I wanted to say the same, water is a wonderful element. Not only is it strong as a natural force, it sneaks in every secret pass-way, in every crack and thus brings mountains and castles to their knees in winter. It comes from the deep of the earth or from the heights of the skies, from every place where secrets lie hidden. It is adaptable and nothing will hinder its course, whether by force or gentle persistence it will always pursue its way. It is the very substance which every living being needs to survive or grow, the draught of life.

Earth otoh is a truly boring element ... it endlessly endures and will endure, sadly, patiently unto the end. (Can you tell I am not too happy with my star-chart either? )

[uguisubari.livejournal.com]

You know, dear, Aries, Gemini, Pisces aren't all that bad. Actually it sounds quite good to me.

On the other hand I know what you mean my own stars and numbers could be very neatly summed up to: "You suck!" Nice, dedicated, stupid, never successful and possibly fat.

[teardrop69.livejournal.com]

I hope you feel better today.

*hugs*

[linaelyn.livejournal.com]

Why is pain beautiful?

Is it that any strong emotion, joy-sorrow-lust-revulsion-rage, has the desired effect of making one feel alive within one's skin?

You are a thing of beauty, darling.

*passes you a helping of JOY for your next serving*

Chocolate pirates shipping towards SoCal now; hang in there, dude.