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fashes poked me until I realized I was being Triggered during the events of the past post, Triggering being reacting to a present situation as if the person in the present is instead the person who've given one trauma in the past.
I'm still upset at myself for overreacting and for leaking rage onto people for no just cause. I don't trust myself yet to react without being Triggered for that situation so I haven't let myself read any of the new comments in that post, 'new' being anything after the timestamp of my last edit.
Again, I am sorry for having caused hurt and harm.
I'm apologizing out of sorrow and regret and not to seek forgiveness, because I don't believe in forgiveness but believe in trying to make sure it will not happen again. I'm not sure how to prove that this last point is happening however, because showing my processing of the situation involves RL details that were apparently attacked in the prior post. In any case, my [therapy related] posts will start out flocked from now on.
fashes poked me until I realized I was being Triggered during the events of the past post, Triggering being reacting to a present situation as if the person in the present is instead the person who've given one trauma in the past.I'm still upset at myself for overreacting and for leaking rage onto people for no just cause. I don't trust myself yet to react without being Triggered for that situation so I haven't let myself read any of the new comments in that post, 'new' being anything after the timestamp of my last edit.
Again, I am sorry for having caused hurt and harm.
I'm apologizing out of sorrow and regret and not to seek forgiveness, because I don't believe in forgiveness but believe in trying to make sure it will not happen again. I'm not sure how to prove that this last point is happening however, because showing my processing of the situation involves RL details that were apparently attacked in the prior post. In any case, my [therapy related] posts will start out flocked from now on.