regarding the previous post.

[permetaform]

So fashes poked me until I realized I was being Triggered during the events of the past post, Triggering being reacting to a present situation as if the person in the present is instead the person who've given one trauma in the past.

I'm still upset at myself for overreacting and for leaking rage onto people for no just cause. I don't trust myself yet to react without being Triggered for that situation so I haven't let myself read any of the new comments in that post, 'new' being anything after the timestamp of my last edit.

Again, I am sorry for having caused hurt and harm.

I'm apologizing out of sorrow and regret and not to seek forgiveness, because I don't believe in forgiveness but believe in trying to make sure it will not happen again. I'm not sure how to prove that this last point is happening however, because showing my processing of the situation involves RL details that were apparently attacked in the prior post. In any case, my [therapy related] posts will start out flocked from now on.

Comments

[morgandawn.livejournal.com]

I think...the way I'd handle this is try to focus on today and tomorrow. Know that your struggle and pain and hurt are leaking and impacting your in person/online communications. And if you feel like posting/venting, try to do it in a safe place.

I'd also try to stay out of fanwank and controversy as much as possible - as you're in a tough place emotionally.

[permetaform]

::nods:: that sounds like a good plan. thank you =) ::hugs::