RPAF: ass-raped by coursework.

[permetaform]

circe_tigana?? I am not so lucky or so strong as you...

Title: Mesh Analysis
Fandom: RPAF
Pairing: Electrical Engineering / permetaform

WARNINGs: non-con, bondage, D/S, snarkage, spoofage

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There is no courtship.

My forehead slams against the wood as you shove me face-first into the table and I writhe because before your Energy, I am nothing. I rub against the graphite helplessly, your schemantics pounding into me, like a twisted side of skullfuck, and I cannot understand it. I am confused by you, raped by you, abused by you, and I cannot do anything to you, my hands at my sides opening and closing. I'm helpless.

I come back to you, like duty like desperation like a sick sort of fate, and I HATE it.

Your Power masters mine, and your equations slip into my mind like live Currents and you meet no Resistance. I am short circuited, quivering like a metal gone weak before your thousands Volts and I let myself be overridden. But you do not have my heart.

I lend my body to you, but my soul is mine own.

Damn you, EE100, because while there shall come a time when all hope is lost, when the pencils are chewed and the mind is pulped before your senseless penetrations, this is not that day. There shall be a day when the soul is destroyed and when I am broken, BUT THIS IS NOT THAT DAY.

::grimly chugs coffee and clutches notepad and a pencil like a shield and a sword::

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[edit] smith_mun adds:

Engineer: A person with subconscious masochist tendencies. When faced with the question of what major they shall choose, they decide to go with the one that should come with a complimentary tube of KY jelly.

Comments

[winter]

The tinkling sound you've heard just now was my brain breaking. At the "this is not that day" line...

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[permetaform]

::points at brain splattered across text-book::

::smiles wryly::

[linaelyn.livejournal.com]

Oh, this one took me back. Power and Beauty and HATELOATHEFRUSTRATION

I can smell the cinderblock classroom at Cal Poly, the one where I decided I couldn't really hack it as an engineer after all. the eraser rubbings of generations of us who've done the same, ground into the grey linoleum squares.

Hang tough, babe. YOU CAN DO THIS.

*passes you mountain dew and 0.5 mm pencils w/extra leads and the pale-green graphing engineering paper*

old skool.

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[permetaform]

::curls self around your feet and whimpers::

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[linaelyn.livejournal.com]

*pets you fondly*

*passes you thoughts of sparkly pants*

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[permetaform]

::gropes sparklyness::

[maymorning.livejournal.com]

Oh you poor love. *pets you* Enjoyed the bit of fic though, see what suffering can do? I'll be thinking of you and hope everything works out okay. (((((hugs)))))

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[permetaform]

::hugs back:: thankyoo!

[guede-mazaka.livejournal.com]

Aiya. *hugs* And when you get done, there's fic waiting to cheer you up.

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[permetaform]

::cries:: I've done the problem like 20 times and I can't figure it ouuuuuuuuut fuckingimpaledchristonaSTICKaksljhfdjagwe!!

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[guede-mazaka.livejournal.com]

Is it due today? If not, take a walk or something. I've noticed that with anything remotely mathematical, the longer you spend staring at it, the less it makes sense. A short break should help clear your mind so you can tackle it from a different angle.

*double-take*

I think the Sands-muse is leaking through a little...

[circe-tigana.livejournal.com]

I love you so.

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[permetaform]

love's plenty returned m'dear, plenty returned

[snapeslilquill.livejournal.com]

*smiles...* Just wanted to let you know I friended you... I read you give recs... and I love several of the pairings you have on your list... So... *smiles...* I just added you!!!

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[permetaform]

no problem! join the insanity!

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[snapeslilquill.livejournal.com]

Thanks... I will... *smiles...*

[rhipowered.livejournal.com]

Dude, this has so inspired me to do a Film/rhipowered fic. Best to you.

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[permetaform]

::hugs:: best of luck in return

[babyomlet.livejournal.com]

Being in the engineering office, I can somewhat appreciate this. I really don't think they consider these sorts of thoughts, however, being as bland as they are O:-)

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[permetaform]

::presses hand to head:: the struggle and sacrifice of the engineering student! giving our minds for the greater good of tech-dom and throwing ourselves upon the spears of insanity, because where does my allegiance lie, if not here?

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[babyomlet.livejournal.com]

Um.

[ficangel.livejournal.com]

*hugs you* *doesn't think it's quite enough for the situation* *hugs again anyway*

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[permetaform]

::hugs back:: thank you!

[pinkdormouse.livejournal.com]

Course work is a bitch, I agree.

Gina

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[permetaform]

::wimpers and curls self around your legs::

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[pinkdormouse.livejournal.com]

*pets*

I'll all be better soon.

Gina

[penm.livejournal.com]

Good God.

Allow me to PROFESS my UNDYING LOVE for you.

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[permetaform]

::blush::

::points at circe_tigana:: she did it first.

[smith-mun.livejournal.com]

Hey! Found your journal while randomly clicking the 'friend-of' list of my muse. I'm an Electrical Engineer as well, and I can totally sympathize. I'm reminded of this definition I saw on an Engineer quiz awhile ago:

Engineer: A person with subconscious masochist tendencies. When faced with the question of what major they shall choose, they decide to go with the one that should come with a complimentary tube of KY jelly.

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[permetaform]

that quote is...quite right.

I think I'll add it to the main post, at that...

[direaliete.livejournal.com]

Engineers from all over the world, stand united against the Electrical Dominatrix!
(Incidentally, I study Computer Engineering and have had my fair share of electrical non-con *g*, so I commiserate!)

[permetaform]

::grins and hands you an extra leather harness::

[lilithraevyn.livejournal.com]

By way of the entry you linked at the beginning, I came here.

I think... I've entered the land of grammar pr0n/BSDM?

This is like Heaven. Or something.

*shifty-eyed look*

[hippediva.livejournal.com]

Oh sweetie. First of all, massive hugs and love, just so's ya know. And don't worry if Norrington is a squick...it happens to us all. I mean, I love Mickey Rourke as an actor, but as a human!! GAK!! If he were the last man on earth, I'd marry my right hand!

The fic? Scary-wonderful!

You're still in top form writing-wise....take a break from the math for a bit and let it settle in your head. Take a nap. It might help.

Just letting you know that you're loved.