[Saiyuki fic] Self-Extension

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hibem's pointed out that 85 day was as much 8/5/5 day as anything else -- and I got attacked by plot-bunnies. So:

Title: Self-Extension
Fandom: Saiyuki
Pairing: 8/5/5

Summary: (After the 'clone' episode in Reload) Hakkai figures out how to make shikigami clones, 'cause two Gojyo's are more intriguing than one and Hakkai is just that curious.

So really, he shouldn't be surprised because Hakkai is really just that quietly kinky, and the bastard can really do anything he ever sets his mind to (and Gojyo feels that small spark of pride and awe and insignificance he always gets, when he gets these kinds of thoughts that he then tamps down, and he really needs a cigarette right now) but it was still kinda weird watching a mirror of him move independently of any reflective surface.

"I found a book of notes on the youkai's corpse; it was simple to recreate the copies since they were completely ki constructs. But, well, I was a bit off, in his coloring." Hakkai sounded apologetic. He should be, the hair was... pink. "Granted, that'll make it easier to sort the two of you out tomorrow morning. Meanwhile--"

And Gojyo doesn't need to look over at Hakkai to know that his smile's gone predatory and dark at the edges.

The Not-Gojyo was already leering. Come to think of it, so was he, and he blessed Hakkai's foresight in getting a room with a queen-sized though it'll still be a bit of a tight squeeze with the three of them.

He heard the lock click into place behind him and found himself walking towards the bed that the copy lay on. Gojyo looked down and met its eyes.

Did he mention that he needed a cigarette right now?

The copy was stretched out on the sheets, naked as the day it was born (which, duh), and it arched a little in that way that Gojyo knew himself to do when he felt slightly unsure and twitchy and-- Well, he'd never liked to be lost in too much self-pity and it's not like he'd never thought about it because he's pretty damn hot if he says so himself. And he did, and Hakkai laughed and so he felt a little more all right as he reached over to thumb at its lips. Except Not-Gojyo grabbed his hand and tugged him hard enough that it both pulled itself into sitting up and made Gojyo sprawl onto its lap. Its leer was just a bit strained and almost resigned and as Gojyo shook off the hand and crashed into Not-Gojyo (meeting him halfway) to test the taste of this copy's mouth, Gojyo wondered if it knew that it would be destroyed before they drove west again. At the same moment that Gojyo thought the thought, he knew that it knew, because he would've known. At least that's how he thinks it works. (He wonders who will kill it.)

It tasted pretty much like chewing on his own lip, but not. The little lightning flicks of its tongue over the roof of his mouth he'd used himself, except. Gojyo moaned deep in his throat, goddamn he didn't know it felt that good. He broke away from its mouth to (breathe) suck at a collarbone while he fumbled to remove his pants and he felt his hands removing his shirt only they're not his hands and then Hakkai's hands skimmed his pants down the rest of the way, only leaving his skin to tug at his shoelaces efficiently, so he could kick it all off.

He'd not let up at Not-Gojyo's collarbone all the while and he released the skin now so he could scoot them both towards the center of the bed. It helped that Hakkai was crowding him in, right behind, to flop onto his side next to them in nothing but shirt and socks, and he and his copy both watched as Hakkai slowly toed off first one sock (following, scratching, digging into the long line of the arch of his foot with his nail) and then the other. They twitched and shivered and then looked at each other and damn but the copy looks (and felt) far too needy. Gojyo kissed it so he wouldn't have to see and he kissed it again because it felt good. He arched against the copy and it arched back just so, it ran the tip of its tongue at the crease of his ear and Gojyo shivered uncontrollably.

Gojyo looked over and Hakkai was staring avidly, hand moving idly, hidden by a shirttail. He had the distinct feeling that Hakkai was taking mental notes.

Gojyo caught his breath between one (perfect) lazy roll of their hips and the next, and asked,

"Hakkai?" Because it was essentially his idea so Hakkai not enjoying himself in all this was very much wrong. But Hakkai just pushed over the lube.

"I want to see you fuck him."

Gojyo tensed and Hakkai paused.

"Gojyo, you're not having second thoughts--"

"No!" And this squeaked out, as a familiar hand (his, not-his) grabbed both of their dicks together and started stroking. Gojyo looked back down at its face and its eyes were closed. It looked indolent, and a bit stupid, like it was trying to memorize something, the textures maybe, the sensations. Gojyo looked away. Hakkai thought for a moment. Then asked,

"Shouldn't I call the copy a 'him'?" Hakkai looked amused, but sounded very very careful. "I thought I got the gender right." The youkai stroked a palm down its cheek, admiring.

Gojyo tried to string together, but couldn't (as it bucked under him, as it, they, moaned), how it was wrong, how it was just a mistake, just a mistake, and it wasn't even allowed to fight before they would have to destroy it, that it was a pretty fuck of a mistake and it was, wasn't it? Such a pretty pretty face. Made him want to punch it.

He twitched as Hakkai dropped a kiss on his shoulder, and bit him.

"Gojyo, stop; look at him." Its face, his face, below him and strained as Hakkai daubed the lube onto his fingers and led his hands down and down to prepare Gojyo-who-is-other even as Hakkai prepared him and (his, not-his) hands kneaded his ass and felt down to where Hakkai's fingers met his body, some part of his brain wanted his mouth to move but his body whined, it's not the time, not the time, and it was the strangest feeling in the world when they sank into each other. Or probably less 'sank together' and more that when Hakkai moved, he couldn't stop him and didn't want to, he moved with Hakkai and fell into himself, a skin outside his own, Hakkai a long hot line down his back urging them both to move, touching one and then the other, and murmuring, "Gorgeous, you're gorgeous." And the face (his, not-his) flushed and thrown back, and laughing at the sheer joy of it, Gojyo knows, because he feels the bright tingle of it too, the tickle of Hakkai's hair and their sobbing moans curling and faster wound up and up into a blinding blinding blackness-like-death; to exhale.

They caught their breaths.

Then carefully pulled out and collapsed into a pile of arms and legs.

Hakkai turned to lay on his back. He said, thoughtfully, at the ceiling, "I would never destroy something so vital to me."

They, Gojyo-who-is-not and Gojyo, chewed on that a little. Then Gojyo-who-is-not turned onto his side and flicked Gojyo in the nose, "Baaaaaaaaa-ka."

"Whuh?" Gojyo blinked. It was the first time he'd spoken.

"Hakkai said I was a ki-construct," huffed Gojyo-who-is-not, "Part of him."

"Oh." Gojyo started, and looked at Hakkai who'd lifted himself up to look at him over Gojyo-who-is-not, draping himself over the other. "Oh."

Gojyo-who-is-not smirked deprecatingly, "Took me a while too." Then he leered. "But if I had to go, what better way than in bed with two hotties, eh?"

They chuckled as Gojyo-who-is-not became translucent, and was reabsorbed into Hakkai. Hakkai then reached out and scootched over until they were close and face-to-face, close enough to kiss each of Gojyo's scars through his hair. He whispered, not a mistake, until they both drifted asleep.



The next morning, Goku hounded Hakkai until he relented and said that he got the process to work, just that Hakkai couldn't copy himself.

"It takes little concentration to create, but I don't have enough ki to spare for a self-copy." Hakkai laughed in that way that seemed to stretch his skin. "I don't have enough of myself to split into two."

Goku looked a bit confused, took the most important ideas, and, "Would they be able to fight? Can I try it? Please Hakkai? That's so COOL."

"Yes, yes I think they would be able to fight." Hakkai looked at Gojyo, "But I think we'd need to first talk to Sanzo and---"

Goku was already running off to find the priest in question.

Gojyo smirked. He shifted a little on the bench and looked at Hakkai from out of the corner of his eye.

"Soooo."

(And Hakkai was already amused.)

"Didya get enough of Sha Gojyo?"

"For the most part." And Hakkai's smile grew wicked.

Gojyo smirked, pleased and a bit chagrined, all at once.

"Actually," Hakkai continued, thoughtfully, "I think I might possibly know the process well enough to change the copy's gender now."

Gojyo, in a slightly frightened way, was quite certain that he does.

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Author's Notes: I vaguely recall the Goku from the original Journey to the West being able to split into many different copies of himself, decided to use it here. Heh, I've been wanting to try the whole 'audience careeeening all over the emotional map' type fic and am glad that I got to play with it in this. Much love to my betas th_nightengale, karose, and lierdumoa for catching grammar and being great cheerleaders. =D Title via th_nightengale here. Oh, and since I've been running on very little sleep, I've probably missed somethings or inconsistencies in the fic that I'm going to correct later; so feel free to critique!

Comments

[hibem.livejournal.com]

Ok... forcing my fingers to type.

This- you- guh- how do you do that? Your Gojyo voice is so right on. I really love the run ons and asides and this has sexy and angst and real insight and I so very owe you fic, woman, but I doubt I could offer up anything this stunning. Man, what a way to wake up. :flails: Thank you so much.

[permetaform]

::wibbles:: oh yay! you like! =D I was debating about waiting for your response to the positiong question, but Hakkai-voice was insisting that he liked to watch and, well...I just sorta followed the path of most angst. Your praise makes me squeal into my hands. =D

As for fic, any length or variant of 85 will do, perferably a bit funny or schmoopy.

[lisa-bee.livejournal.com]

Oh Dear God, the idea of she!Gojyo is just too hot.

Also, the worry about what would happen to the construct was just wonderful. Plus, mmmm, 558. Mmmm.

[permetaform]

=D thank you!

(and I couldn't not put that last bit in ::evil grin:: )

And heh, yeah that was actually the hardest part to figure out I think, 'cause Gojyo reacts to death in so many ways.

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oh! btw, have you read emungere's ranma!saiyuki fic? (gojyo get's turned into a girl, sanzo into a panda...)

[trensaddiction.livejournal.com]

*laughs* Oh, fantastic. Sad to say I was particularly happy when the clone did not have to truly die. A little death makes a poignant spice to the story, but you did such a good job of making both of them so very much "Gojyo" that it was a pleasant relief when the original was able to give up his sadness at the thought of his lover being able to use and kill him so thoughtlessly.

I also truly like what this all implies about Hakkai - the parallels to Nii were devastatingly delicious. Fantastic fiction.

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but you did such a good job of making both of them so very much "Gojyo" that it was a pleasant relief when the original was able to give up his sadness at the thought of his lover being able to use and kill him so thoughtlessly.

::BEAMS, just BEAMS:: YAAAAY!

Dude, thank you for such fantastic feedback!! ::glomps::

[nightengale.livejournal.com]

yeah, so the problem with being 3 hours ahead of you is when i say i'm going to bed, i AM, and totally didn't see your email. as i'm sure you can surmise. ^^;; but tis sent now. One more thing my beta did not catch: naked as the day it was born, I think.

*bounce* I'm enough of a fangirl to squee you used my sleepy title. XD

Would flail at you more, but i did last night, and have no real desire to restate it all. Instead:

Or probably less 'sank together' and more that when Hakkai moved, he couldn't stop him and didn't want to, he moved with Hakkai and fell into himself, a skin outside his own, Hakkai a long hot line down his back urging them both to move, touching one and then the other, and murmuring, "Gorgeous, you're gorgeous."

This is as close as you ever get to treating the actual core of this fic directly, at least in my eyes: That more than Gojyo's misconcieved guilt over the construct's fate, and more than the thankfulness I feel compelled to offer Gojyo for being so good at rolling with it, no matter what, (and, as I ignore the Sanzo in the back of my head that told him to go fuck himself and the Kenren that's laughing his head off 'cause DAMN, and also from pride in Tenpou), the fic's about Hakkai's delicious kink. And we watch the physical aspect, but really, for me it's his mental game that gives it depth.

Which goes back to the title. In one way, Hakkai's a kinky beautiful always-gets-his-way...thing, because I want to use a lot of words there that don't quite fit. Anyways. In one way, playing with a new toy. In another, employing the great and awesome power of Overthinking Saiyuki...

How much more complete can you make your love? When all the song lyrics say how much they want to be all around, in, on top of, underneath, and surrounding thier lover, all at once, and he *does* it...he'll be hard-pressed to top himself after this one, puns free for the taking. I don't think for a moment that the clone wouldn't have been *himself*, if he could have. Lacking that...knowing Gojyo is flexible that way...*hums and grins* Hakkai the twisted romantic. How sweet. *squees quietly*

*snuggles you*

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hee! ::goes to tweak::

(and, as I ignore the Sanzo in the back of my head that told him to go fuck himself and the Kenren that's laughing his head off 'cause DAMN, and also from pride in Tenpou)

::gigglefit:: yeah!

::reads Hakkai bit::

oh. huh. o.o <- ::a might poleaxed:: 'cause you're right but...huh. ::goes to re-read fic::

[ninhursag.livejournal.com]

Oh, now that's an interesting idea. Very sexy, devious Hakkai you have going on and that's my favorite Hakkai of all. :)

I also think it it's very clever how you tied up the loose ends regarding the fate of the construct. Nicely put together story.

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=D thank you! I'm so glad you like it 'cause I adored your Sister Midnight.

[andmydog.livejournal.com]

Not only is that hothothotliekguh, but Gojyo's seeing not-Goyjo, seeing his I'm-not-comfortable tells just hurt.

And the promise/threat of a temporary female Gojyo is a happy thought to carry through the day. Thanks again for writing this!

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but Gojyo's seeing not-Goyjo, seeing his I'm-not-comfortable tells just hurt.

w00t! XD

And, heh, not only a temporary female Gojyo, but a male Gojyo right there and...

WHOA.

and JIEN! ::GIGGLEFIT::

[hane.livejournal.com]

o__________o Ohmygod.

WHY DON'T YOU WRITE MORE OMIGAWD THIS IS FUCKING FANTASTIC.

...ahem. Yes. c.c

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Thank you! I'm glad you like it and ...::wry grin:: thing is, I only ever get an idea like this once in a blue moon....

[mistressrenet.livejournal.com]

Oooh, brilliant! Hee!

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=D thank you!

[emungere.livejournal.com]

♥! I enjoyed this so very much. :)

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=D thank you!

[cicer.livejournal.com]

Ahahaha! *hearts* Fabulous crackfic. I love it.

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=D thank you!

[tiggymalvern.livejournal.com]

That first paragraph is such perfect Gojyo voice. And Hakkai really is just that quietly kinky XD

I love the way that you've written a short little novelty-idea piece, and you've still managed to get so much of Gojyo in there - his thoughts, his worries over the clone and what will happen to it. Because he would. Beautiful intensity.

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::grins and bows:: I'm so glad you like it! (though, heh, I don't think I *can* really write anything more than little novelty pieces ::wry grin::)

[cyne-dias.livejournal.com]

Pink hair, as opposed to Reload!Gojyo... ::gigglefit::

And Gojyo voice is just guh, like the other more eloquent commenters said before me.

PS. Hakkai is evil. :D

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=D Heee! thank you! (and I TOTALLY had gigglefits over the hair!)

[new-kate.livejournal.com]

You wrote stuff!! *glomp* You know it totally makes my day every time you do!
oh god. oh god *wibbles*
Okay. What we need to do is clone permetaform. So one can write full-time, and the other can vid and vid and vid, and the other can hang out on the AIM and post those amazing thoughtful rants and super linkage, and the other one can actualy have, like, life, and...
*abandons evil plans grudgingly*
This is so beautiful. And hot (you made Hakkai taking off his sock into an erotic display!!! Wow, just wow). And right. Perfect characterisation. And fuuck, the words like shiny gems, the pretty pretty alliterations and wordplay and everything is falling together and is so so amazing *flails* you rock, so much, guh. *worships*

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awww! ::glomps back:: thank you! Sorry for such the late reply, I was a bit swamped.

And dude, the cloning? I wish it. So. So. Much.

(heh, the sock thing caught me off guard too. utterly) I'm so glad you like this, your comment makes me squee into my pillow. =D

[louiselux.livejournal.com]

Oh, that was so good! I loved how you wrote Gojyo's confusion and sense of how strange it all was, and also Hakkai's avid attention-- wow. The bit where the ki-Gojyo finally speaks and Gojyo realises he's a part of Hakkai works really well too, because up until then I hadn't made the connection either.

Great fic - I really enjoyed it.

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=D thank you! And yay! I'm really glad that the story seemed to flow well, I was worried at times that the seriality of it as I was writing (I was writing it in the comments of hibems post, a drabble's worth at a time).

[wildelamassu.livejournal.com]

You are crazy in the best way!

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=D ::glomps:: thank you!