vid thoughts from the vidding meme

Just been thinking over some of the comments I got from the vidding truth meme and talking it over with

fashes this weekend, and while I'd realized before how much I'm driven by things I like and how much energy I get from being happy, it never quite hit me until now how much I was the most deeply invested in those of my vids that are about joy. Whether it was about being broken and finding your buttress (The Fragile), about pulling away from hurtful addiction (Gravity), about never being able to be enough or to do enough with the exception of loving hard enough (After Midnight), about getting your heart broken and reaching for love again and again (In The Breakdown), about being broken and breaking things and still still finding a place that will embrace you (Welcome Home)...these vids took the most out of me, frustrated the most out of me, demanded the most out of me because, well...I...want to bottle joy.

I want to show how to smile, with ash in your mouth. I want to show hands that hold and create both blood and beauty.

I want to show this bittersweet happiness in as clear a way as possible on as many levels as possible, because I want to try to communicate this feeling and I know that people communicate in different ways. So it's good to know from the meme that my vids aren't connecting emotionally, so that I know to try harder.

::HUGS:: to those who've commented on my thread, thank you for letting me know.

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...This is a gorgeous post. It's completely - gah. That - you're precisely articulated one of my big far raisons d'être art-wise.

Thank you. ^u^

::hugs:: =)

it's good to know from the meme that my vids aren't connecting emotionally

Well, they do connect emotionally with me. Just one in the audience, maybe (and I am working on vids reviews, if RL lets me!)...but I don't think so. It doesn't mean that you shouldn't 'try harder, as you say...to me, I know that each vid, from (almost) any songvidder, it's done to the best of their abilities and technical possibilities each single time.
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::hugs:: =) thank you for letting me know

I want to show how to smile, with ash in your mouth. I want to show hands that hold and create both blood and beauty.

Yes. Just...yes. I do that, too.

I think sometimes I'm coming at it from the opposite way: showing the joy and then how it is undercut by sorrow. But I'm always aiming for bittersweet, too; to show how life is made of pain and grace.

Lately I have been trying to show something similar in my vids; I think what I'm actually aiming for is a sense of balance. Things are not all good or all bad; all funny or all tragic. There are elements of both in everything. Especially in humor, which I have difficulty serving up straight. And, actually, now that I think about it, my next vid is exactly about this balance. Hm.

Thanks for these interesting thoughts. :)

I think part of this is about our attraction to particular kinds of dramatic shows and movies. I imagine we might feel differently if our primary universes were, say, Star Wars and Seinfeld. (: Nourished as we have been on complex and bittersweet stories that seem to leave room for hope no matter what despair befalls, it's only natural to want to vid that way.

::ponders:: huh. I think...I think I must try that then, but it'll probably end up being 6 min long 'cause I need to both take them there and then take them back. ...::chews on idea::

I'm very much moved by your enthusiasm.

Must say that Welcome Home does transmit this sense of joy to me. I so look look forward to your next vid. Just... yeah, happy to have you in fandom and to have meet you.

The emotion and the joy gets through to me, at least. The permagrin (pun intended) never fails to arrive and linger, every time i watch your vids - even After Midnight, for which I'm probably on viewing #50.

In a general sense of motivation-for-creation, or creative process, I agree with you 115% on this post. Everything in your enthusiasm in this post rings so true to me. It's why I love being around you, after all, and while optimistic I don't think it's an unreachable goal. You're already accomplishing it with some of your audience....to constantly keep working on that is in itself a joy, imho.

♥

And apologies for all the comments with this journal. I can't log into th_nightengale so this will have to do for now. *g* I'm just happy your journal is public so I can peek at you! ^__^

::hugs:: =)

And thank you.

I have a hunch that a large part of what motivated that sentiment may be related to the fact that you've vidded mostly movies at this point. People do not, generally speaking, seem to get as emotionally invested in movies as they do certain TV series. The fandoms just aren't there (PoTC seems to be something of an exception). So they're probably not reacting as emotionally to your vids (the movies) as they might be to the vids of others that vid fandoms they're already neck deep in. The more you learn to read the vids, the easier it is to fall for characters you don't know, or don't already love. But that's not everyone's cup o' tea. ;)

Personally, I think you *do* get to the emotion--I'm still amazed at how you absolutely transformed PoTC with "Gravity". That is a wonderful example of creating not only an emotional connection with your vid, but a connection that the movie itself didn't even imagine. :)

I have a hunch that a large part of what motivated that sentiment may be related to the fact that you've vidded mostly movies at this point. People do not, generally speaking, seem to get as emotionally invested in movies as they do certain TV series.

huh! yeah, that is something to consider. But like, I've seen vids that I don't know the source to at all and have been affected so...::stumped::

But I'm so glad that Gravity worked for you, that it did that. ::hugs::

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