Random Fly-by Thought

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"You irksome, adolescent, egomaniacal bastard. You have irritated and enraged me for the better part of thirty years, and I won't stand for another minute of it. In the interest of persuading you once and for all to shut up and leave me the hell alone, I will tell you, just this once: I love you, you little prick. I love the way you pull on your pants in the morning, I love the way you drink your tea, I love the way your hair falls in your face when you read, I love the lines around your eyes when you laugh. I've loved you so long I hardly know when I began, and I love you so well I shall never be able to stop. Your feeble little mind can hardly wrap itself around the degree to which I love you, and you needn't preen yourself overmuch for your bravery today, because if you hadn't said it, I surely would not have been able to contain myself much longer. I love you, and only you, and shall never love another my life long, and when you are tired of me and toss me out on my ear, underneath my hatred will still be love, and more love, and yet more. And if, by some undeserved mercy of God, I am fortunate enough to die before you, my last words to you will be: I love you, Sirius Black."

~ From a story by fabularasa (yes, I realize I gave you the link to her website, not the fic itself. Read through all the stories till you get to it. You can thank me later. ::grins::)

Why, I ask, am I so amused and touched (not necessarily in that order) by pairings in which one parter is a profound irritant to the other? Clark/Lex is never so delightful to me as when they are in their Superman/Luthor mode, when Ryouga is constantly flailing at Ranma, Zelgadis enraged to no end by Xelloss, Sanzo pissed beyond belief at Goku, when Gojyo wants to throttle Hakkai, and when Snape is at his snarliest with either Black or Hagrid.

I mean seriously. Is it just a sadistic urge? Is it an entertaining plot device that's neat to watch? Do I like it so much, because it feels so realistic, and wtf does that say of my views on life? ::gigglesnort::

Ah well, so works the random fannish mind. Off to sleep. fannish party tomorrow, yay!

Comments

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I think it's a touch of the real, and a touch of the passion. When you're in love, and you're in love with someone you love,...it's not necessarily that it lacks that, but it's a tamer sort of thing. Kenaz. The gift of controlled fire. A candle, a torch, a hearth. When something comes up that's irritating about your partner, it tends to be more of a nagging thing, and once the kindling ignites, it's hard to bring it back down before there's some kind of damage done.

But when you're in love with someone you hate, and it's the very things you ought to hate about them that draw you in... Fehu. Wildfire. Moth and flame. Things don't explode in quite the same way because they're always out of control. Always burning, always consuming... Striking like lightning, burning down to embers, simmering, licking up again...

Damn, I need to go write some hate!porn. ^^;