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Life has gone insane and I find myself both losing too much sleep trying to catch up and not being involved enough while trying to catch up 'cause I'm spreading myself too thin. God, you'd think I'd learn by now about spreading myself too thin.
Prepare the front and the rear has few.
Prepare the left and the right has few.
Everywhere prepared, everywhere few.
~ Sun Tzu
I swear, I need to paste that somewhere prominent. I would on my head, but then I can't read it.
You'd think I'd learn. ::headdesks::
On that note, I'm clipping my friendslist. 750 is far too insane, and I can read fast but I still have a limit and time is short and I'm not giving people the attention they deserve and I *want* to be friends with everyone who friends me back but...fuck.
Because of the frienditto scare, I've realized that I *want* this journal to be a fan journal. I want it most of all to be where I can interact with fans of whatever fandom I'm in. But that doesn't work well on the internet, I don't think I (personally) can handle putting RL and fandom in one open forum.
One has to go, and I chose to keep fandom.
I'm not sure what that says about me. Or if it says anything. People keep on complaining about others who compartementalize too much, but I think that if I *don't* compartementalize I'll just bleed right through. Perhaps, if on some level, you don't compartementalize, you'll fall apart, mind into heart into gut into feces. It becomes one big undifferentiated mass...but I dunno if that argument is even applicable here.
I know I've moved from the fandoms I've originally met most of you; don't feel bad if you de-friend me, there's no bad feelings from me if you do.
Actually, if you're anything like me, the whole concept of de-friending leaves me queasy. Guilt-complex.
Mother-dear trained me well.
Prepare the left and the right has few.
Everywhere prepared, everywhere few.
~ Sun Tzu
I swear, I need to paste that somewhere prominent. I would on my head, but then I can't read it.
You'd think I'd learn. ::headdesks::
On that note, I'm clipping my friendslist. 750 is far too insane, and I can read fast but I still have a limit and time is short and I'm not giving people the attention they deserve and I *want* to be friends with everyone who friends me back but...fuck.
Because of the frienditto scare, I've realized that I *want* this journal to be a fan journal. I want it most of all to be where I can interact with fans of whatever fandom I'm in. But that doesn't work well on the internet, I don't think I (personally) can handle putting RL and fandom in one open forum.
One has to go, and I chose to keep fandom.
I'm not sure what that says about me. Or if it says anything. People keep on complaining about others who compartementalize too much, but I think that if I *don't* compartementalize I'll just bleed right through. Perhaps, if on some level, you don't compartementalize, you'll fall apart, mind into heart into gut into feces. It becomes one big undifferentiated mass...but I dunno if that argument is even applicable here.
I know I've moved from the fandoms I've originally met most of you; don't feel bad if you de-friend me, there's no bad feelings from me if you do.
Actually, if you're anything like me, the whole concept of de-friending leaves me queasy. Guilt-complex.
Mother-dear trained me well.
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As for 'defriending' - it's such a shame that LJ insists on calling it that. It creates quite the wrong associations. You shouldn't have to feel guilty about being too busy to read somebody's journal, or having lost interest; that's the way life is. Besides, unless you f-lock your own posts, whoever you defriend can still read them so it's not like they lose anything!
If you want to defriend me, please go right ahead without feeling any guilt. (Just let me keep reading your entries! *g*)
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